I feel like I have ruminated on quite a bit through my writings here. My project involved a lot of internal work, I didn't feel like I could really get to the "meat" of anything as far as steps to complete my work. The reading and research was fairly easy and very informative. The compiling of personal data wasn't much of a challenge either. The work I did was mental and emotional. How do I quantify that in a presentation?
I'm really not sure how to explain what it felt like to pick up an expensive wedge of cheese, look at the price, figure out my "life units" and put it back. It felt very strange. It felt like I was denying the little girl in me something she really wanted. I have had many many moments like this.
Part of the issue is the very common trap of, "I work hard to make money, so I should be able to spend that money on things I want." Of course, by truly analyzing my "wants" I can see that it's not serving my true needs. My true needs are more about time and my future. Another lipstick will not help me with anything. An expensive wedge of cheese is unhealthy as well as completely unnecessary. It doesn't even offer much temporary happiness, it's just another bad habit I picked up as my income went up.
The issues that truly get me down in life revolve around my work schedule and spending so much time on something that is unsatisfying. The answer is out there for me, it's right in front of me, but the changes and choices I have to make are complicated and emotionally difficult.
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